Down in the dumps....

Thats exactly what I am. My weight is sky high. I want to be lighter and I want to like myself more. Im 17st just now and that is way too much. I've ordered some hoodia to see if that will help with my cravings. Hopefully it will. So far I've had a bowl of fruit, some lentil and wild rice salad and some grapes. Not feeling too hungry just now which is good. Its good to not feel hungry all the time. Jason seems a bit off today. Not sure whats wrong. Says his stomach is a bit sore but he seems very quiet. Can't get him to talk. He wants to go into Edinburgh now but I don't know if I should just leave him to it or go with him. Its still horrible weather here. Been raining on and off now for days and days and it is just soooo depressing.
Well I have managed to get a job in town which is good. Working for Search Recruitment as a Call handling advisor. 37.5 hours a week usually monday to friday with the occasional Saturday. Working 9am - 5pm this week then it shifts to shifts anything between 8am and 8pm. Glad to be back in work that will give me about £200 a week. Its better than a kick in the teeth and I can give money to Jason for shopping and bills. Speak to you later today on here. Bye

Loz

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New Year, New Blog, Hopefully new Me!

Well 2007 is finally here and I'm finally wanting to lose this extra weight for good. I've worked out that I have about 5st to lose in total. Thats a lot of extra bulk that I'm carrying around for no reason at all, bar my love of flavour, food and chocolate. I keep thinking that Jason (my boyfriend) will get rid of me from his life for how I look. He still says that I'm sexy but I don't feel it at all anymore. I just want to feel like I used to feel a couple of years ago. I feel like I am letting myself down and Jason down and my family down. I am going to try Paul McKenna's "I can make you Thin" as I have heard many great things about it. So might as well try it. Need to exercise more too. I have to.
Need to find a job soon too. I feel bad for picking off Jason and I'm just getting more and more bored sitting around the house.
Right, need to find headphones. Need to check jobs, need to remember to keep updating this! Lol.

Speak soon x x x

Size 18 - 22
WEIGHT TO LOSE: 70lb